Resolution tonight - start writing blog posts earlier in the day!
Honestly - I get to this hour of the evening, and as easy as writing is for me, I'm ready to call it a night and turn into bed with a book.
My idea came to me early today. I just didn't get around to it until now.
I am going to quote from the sermon of Pastor Carl Evans this morning, at Christ Lutheran Church. Taking the quote somewhat out of context, but I'll explain why in a moment.
You are loved at a fundamental level that is not dependent on what you have done or failed to do. The blank canvas on which we paint our lives is love. The stillness from which our song breaks out is love. The empty page on which your story is written is love.
This quote struck me as personally profound because it speaks so directly to the three main careers that roll into one for me. Artist. Author. Musician.
The blank canvas - songs - and written story. All of which have love as the foundation. Or more importantly, God's love for me - for us - as the foundation.
I struggle sometimes with whether they have merit merely for the sake of creativity. Of how I might be able to shed the other "jobs" that I work in order to reside wholly, fully within this identity, and maintain a roof over my head, food on my table, and give generously to those around me.
In these words I find permission to allow myself to dream of a day when I might be permitted to have my entire livelihood and financial security come from just these three things. (the word "just" should probably be deleted - it is an awesome, sacred trio of creative gifts)
I surrender to God's plan for my life. I have a feeling it resides somewhere in the midst of the trio Just not quite sure how it comes to fruition.
From my lips to God's ears. If it is your will for me Lord, so let it be.
Very personal blog tonight. Thank you for allowing me to put it in writing.
Thoughts, dreams, questions.