If you've ever used the drive through window at the bank with your dog in the car, you know where this is going. Basic Pavlovian training. Take the dog with you one time, let the teller send a biscuit back to the car with your money, and your dog will remember that event, every single time you get back in the car. It's like the mere suggestion of "Do you want to go for a ride in the car?" implies that there will be a treat somewhere along the way. And they are right. There usually is. If not at the bank, then maybe the gas station or somewhere else.
Not so for a cat. Ride in the car one time to the vet, and EVERY time you put that cat in the car, well, they are NOT going to want to play along.
So which one are you? A cat or a dog? Do you have positive expectations based on a single wonderful experience, or do you carry fear with you into situations because of one bad time?
I wonder for how many people the idea of 'church' fits into this category? If you went to church one time and you walked away feeing uplifted and loved, well, then you're likely to go back for more and anticipate a positive experience very time. If on the other hand the first time you went you could barely keep your eyes open through a dreary sermon and nobody even said hello to you then you likely won't find it all that appealing to consider going back.
I hope you are more dog than cat in this line of experience. And if you are feeling a bit more feline about it, then please reach out and talk to me. I know more than one place that offer the finest of feline delights. With a promise of God's love and grace for you.
ps - by the way - I had the idea of the dog biscuit thing but had no idea where it was going to lead - finding myself somewhat amazed it turned into a worship experience discussion! God does work in remarkable ways!