Oh my - only two days left and the 90 day blog challenge is complete! Feeling a bit of pressure to finish in an extraordinary way, but honestly, I'm just going to do as I have every evening for the past 88 days. Write about - what comes to mind when I ask the question "what should I write about today?"
Now, just WHO am I asking that question of? That's a longer story.
To those of you who believe all wisdom lies within, that would be a question to myself, to figure out what the topic will be.
To those of you who have been following the blog for the past three months, you already know that I believe in something much wiser than myself, and that I abhor the term "figure out." Ok - abhor is a bit strong. But it has become a phrase I choose to avoid whenever possible.
Because my life isn't just up to me. That's not a statement of shirking responsibility. Rather it is one of surrender. (hang on - here she goes again) I surrendered my life to God a while back. So it's not just up to me. I count on God to guide my ways. The heck with that bumper sticker "God is my co-pilot." I want God to be THE PILOT. I'm quite delighted to sit n the backseat, takes orders, and follow.
Of course, there's noise that gets in the way between the front and the back seat sometimes, and it's difficult to know if the orders I think I'm hearing truly come from God. That's a process. A lifelong learning, working with various discernment exercises and tools to hone the skill. And most importantly, learning to trust God to be God (which then means I simply need to be me.)
Now, how did I end up on THIS topic? I started out with the intention of writing about standing in line this evening at the memorial service of my friend who passed earlier this week and a woman who I met years ago telling me her book club is reading my book this month and I had no idea and... well, that topic obviously gave way to a different one. That's just how the Spirit works sometimes.
I'm good with that. Because it is a far more important message. The other one was going to have a little too much ego wrapped up in it.
Breathe. Be still. Listen for the voice of God amid the noises of the world. Then reach down deep (or up high) for the courage to follow it.
Nite nite for now. It's been a glorious 89 days. Thank you to each one of you who has read this far.
Thoughts, dreams, questions.