This is wild. I just sat down to write today's blog post - about intentional change - and an e-newsletter shows up with an article titled "The Art of Becoming Who You Want to Be." Seriously, folks - just can't make this stuff up! Like it was handed to me from an angel (and yes, I know who the angel is, and her name is Evana - but more on that later.)
The blog topic was prompted by two conversations today. Both left me frustrated afterward, because assumptions were made about my intentions, and my likely reactions, based on how I would have reacted say - oh - two or three years ago.
I'll quote here the followup text to one friend. She was concerned that I would be hurt or upset with her about a possible change in some plans we talked about a while ago (that's a messy sentence but I'll let it stand as is!).
"Seriously. No pressure. New version Mimi (no drink no smoke more God less crazy) does not get upset as easily as previous version. Probably most frustrating part of the journey for me - friends expect old stupid behavior while I am really trying to live different. Only time will prove it I suppose. I'm really intentional about shape shifting from old unhealthy behaviors. "
Yes, there's a whole lot more to that story, but hopefully you get the idea. The question rolling around in my head for the past several hours has been, "how long does it take until people will start to notice the change? " or perhaps more succinctly, "haven't they been paying attention?"
Yes, I've been on a significant personal journey. One that has brought me ever closer to God. Changed personal behaviors that allow my mind to be more clear, my reactions to be less strong and more appropriate. Or at least I try to be that way. I'm a work in progress. Admittedly not getting it right all of the time. Old habits die hard. But I'm trying. Really I am.
"You can't teach an old dog new tricks." Bah humbug to that. Rosie is still learning at age six. And I am at fifty six.
What's my point? This started out as a bit of a personal rant - but think about it, please. How often do we assume how someone will react, or respond - based on previous behavior. Let's allow room for growth - in ourselves, and in others. Forgive old behavior in favor of paying attention to the present.
God is capable of miracles. Our job is to show up. Do our part. And believe that by the grace of God (literally) transformation is possible.
Though I do still enjoy a swim in Buzzards Bay more than just about anything... I hope THAT never changes!
Peace, love, joy - to each and every one of you on your own journey.
ps - please do take a look at the Fashion Feng Shui e-newsletter - the article I referenced is about halfway down. Thank you, Andrew, for the timing of your send!!!
Thoughts, dreams, questions.